11.19.08 Blog Post from Marky on Vimeo.
By now ya'll know Im a "Critical Thinker" - thats stamped.
I feel like this is my gift and curse ya know?
For example...*clears throat*... when communication fails and things seem slow at times, Im guessing our minds wander off and WE ALL get in the "Critical Thinker" mode, right?
Well, I feel like majority of the times I PERSONALLY go in overdrive with it lol.
Not a bad thing tho - but sometimes when things don't work out and you feel as tho you're not in a good space mentally for the moment, this "overdrive" can become a CANCER...called STRESS.
I believe that stress is a performance hinderance, and can make things and/or events, aswell as people, appear different than what they are.
You feel me?...
Like, it can lead to irrational decisions and thoughts.
The type of person I am - I don't act off emotions.
Granted. Im human - I can only bare so much but my person is not of that stature.
I take things in (good and bad) and process it "Critically".
KB told me that "sometimes you take on things much greater than you have to at the moment but thats just the leader you are on the inside."
I believe I take on things...no...I think too hard and long on things that aren't even worth my thoughts.
Do you guys do this sometimes too? Im just wondering, I wanna know if Im alone in this lol
I was listening to Steve Harvey Morning Show yesterday NO monday morning and he opened the show talking about when you're reaching for a goal MUCH GREATER than any typical normal goal, your trials and tribulations are MUCH GREATER as well.
Sometimes we, as artist/entrepreneurs/actors/etc, need to hear these inspirational messages.
Steve went on to say that God is waiting for you to ask him for his helping hand.
He said that people with little problems like "man, I need that $5 for gas..." aren't on that level of understanding the bigger picture at hand, not only yours but even their own. tisk tisk tisk
I agree totally.
And, we all in one way or another live above our means...but get this, working hard can be mistaken for struggling when thats not the case.
When you're working hard for something and you live LiFe to the most UMPH DEGREE possible, you aren't struggling - but rather fulfilling your life and living the bigger picture in real-time.
Sometimes its hard for me to appreciate my record deal cuz I want so much more.
I MOST DEF appreciate it but I think I forget where I was 6 months ago at times due to whats NOT happening and blazay blah...
I also understand there is NOTHING wrong with me wanting to achieve so much more post the deal.
I just cannot allow what seems to be NOT happening, become negativity in my space which becomes a cancer to my performance.
But when I look around me, I realize how blessed I am to be in my position.
So although I may sometimes be in my "Critical Thinker" mode at times, I have to keep my sights set at the BIGGER PICTURE!
They say a picture is worth a million words...
then shit, I vision a movie - my journey in my mind is so profound and its own visionary, I don't think I could express it via song or blog.
Lastnight I was having a heart to heart with my grandma (mama) and after hearing me tell her my bit on my future and plans, she told me, "I bet make God laugh alot." Im like "...wuhh?" lol
She says, "yeah, you make him laugh by telling him YOUR plans when he already have a plan for you FAR BEYOND you can fathom in your wildest and most extreme dream or fantasy."
She's right tho...who the hell I think I am lol
If you wanna make God laugh, tell him YOUR plan for you lol.
I truly believe my path, and yours, is already laid out for us - we're just walking it.
We think we have it all figured out and al that good stuff, atleast I do sometimes but we have to remember these things. Let GO and Let GOD.
Thats why there is no need for hating on one another because you can only be who you are at the end of the day and your path is already laid out for you.
So if somebody else wins the contest and not you - it wasn't meant for you to win.
God doesn't make mistakes.
Just believe that and say that to yourself when you feel down and out - it'll restore the feeling of comfort 1,000,000,000% gauranteed
what ya'll think?